INSECURITIES NO MORE..

I've been blogging about photography, events, travels and friends but I haven't blogged something personal about me yet. I promised to myself not to blog anything personal as to the fact that I'm not open to private things and even my close friends know how secretive I am and they respect me for that, However I decided tonight to cross that line and share my insecurities and how that shaped me to the girl I am right now. I easily lose hope in life and in love, I easily give up and let go maybe that's the reason why I still don't have somebody beside me. I hide my feelings and keep it safe by not telling anyone for me it's better that way, I only trust myself when situation like that happens. Insecurity is the main denominator for all of these. I lose hope, I hide my feelings because I am an insecure girl. I don't trust anyone because for me I know someday they will hurt me that's the reason why I tend to make a step back to any relationships. When in it comes to pursuing dreams I am also a zero. I dreamt to be in front of all investors convincing them to invest to the company I'm working for, or selling products and do the talking and talking, Yes I want to be in sales or marketing of a big company but I easily lose hope and cursed that job when I was turned down by P&G and GlaxosmithKline, I applied for those companies when I was about to graduate. I wasn't ready for them I was shaking during the interview process and was disoriented because I had a lot of things running on my mind like the thesis papers, the graduation requirements and everything. I felt so low after those events happened to me, I don't feel like applying for any jobs then IBM, an IT company emailed me asking me to write anything about the future of IT, I was hesitant at first so I asked where they got my contact details and they told me University of San Carlos endorsed students to them, so I wrote back and they called me and want to interview me personally in their Makati office. I was excited I even told my parents about it but then I had to decline due to family affairs. My grandmother suffered from cancer and looking for a job was something I forgot to do and I valued the closeness of relatives from that event then my grandmother died and from there I said to myself I don't want to be far away from my family. I am happy in where I am right now my job and my new hobby, Photography. 

I am obsessed with Photography for 6 months now and I still am a wanderer in this new hobby, there are a lot to learn and I'm still not happy with my photos. There was a time I want to sell my camera and stop all these photography madness inside me but then I remembered my friend who told me 2 years ago that "Yan I know you will excel in whatever you do because I can see the potential in you". I don't know where he is right now but I will never forget what he said to me. 

No matter how insecure you are there will be someone who will make you feel secured and that someone will be a man enough to tell you you're worth it. If someone you like praises other girls or celebrities other than you let them be and forget about them they don't deserve you. Find someone that brings out the best in you and makes you feel the most beautiful girl in his world.

Thanks for reading this OA post and don't give up waiting for that someone who will be there for you indefinitely and chase your dreams and make it happen no matter how crazy it is.

IT'S SUMMER TIME

SUMMER is here... 

Can you feel the extensive hotness? Last week we had our Summer Outing at White Sands Resort in Maribago. It was a blast! I had a lot of fun with my friends and officemates. In this post are the photos of last week's Accenture PCS activity 

Enjoy =)

 Inside the bus with Leslie and Sue

 There was a special gift for the first 20 to arrive early in the meeting place and that's to have a tattoo for free. (Jonah enjoying his henna tattoo)

 With my friend since 2007 Glace Soliano 

 My mentor in the corporate world Chikee

 My teammate Dex

Lining up and choosing the best henna tattoo design 

 Bush -- The funny guy without effort

 My team leaders Niesse and Jan

 My seatmate for a year and a half I guess Gerald

 This boy is so cute and so charming, Can you tell? hehehe

 THE GAMES

There are actually 4 teams I belong to the Blue team however green team brought home the bacon and the 10,000 worth of team building budget.. good for them HAHAHA..

 The photo below makes me smile because I really love the game and its concept. 

 Look at how they play

 IMBA FAMILY =)

 the battle of the red team and the green team 

Mark Lopez with his tan lines 

 I was left breathless after the fire dance, all I can say is WOW =)

Shot at Shutter Priority and not in Manual because I was in a hurry and to switch to Tv is the fastest way to shoot this magnificent dance.

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HONG KONG 2013

 Europe? Hahaha.. That's in Venetian Hotel Macau

 waiting for the bullet train to arrive

 Time Check 10:00 p.m. and they are still so alive at night 

Take me to Hong Kong please? I want to go back to Hong Kong and get lost! When I was there it was way too cold to imagine and I wasn't ready for the 15 degrees Celsius temperature. I was shivering the whole trip anyways I love their airport it's so huge and so world class.

If you will ride the Airport Express to your hotel I tell you its gonna cost you 100 HKD so you better take the bus and save more.

Our room at Hong Kong

If you're gonna notice my jacket is over used throughout the whole trip, that's because I thought I can tolerate the coldness but I was so wrong so I have to suffer wearing it the entire trip. 

If you are in Hong Kong make sure to wear flats as you will be walking and walking, If you will be going there during winter just make sure to bring scarfs or probably gloves. 

- MACAU -

Ferry to Macau

Please be ready going to Macau is not a smooth sailing trip, As what my friends who've been there too said to me when I asked them if it's normal to feel like the boat is about to sink or what then they told me YES THAT'S NORMAL!!!

Venetian Hotel Bus with Ron

When you reach Macau there will be a lot of Hotel Buses parked in the ferry terminal and you will just choose what hotel you want to go and ride their free service bus again I'm gonna say it FREE HAHAHA my face is so damn white we were in a hurry no time for make-ups and cover ups!!

I've been dreaming of visiting this hotel since 2008, Do you have any idea what's with 2008? Okay I'm gonna say it "GU JUN PYU" 

I spent many sleepless nights before just to watch Boys Over Flowers and I was really amazed on their Macau episode hmmmm...

I looked for the exact spot where the emotional Gum Jandi and Gu Jun Pyu exchanged their harsh words "You're like a stain I want to remove in my life" Correct me if I'm wrong I'm not sure with what exact words Gu Jun Pyu uttered but I know that's the thought of what he wants Gum Jandi to know.

So here is the exact spot guys

one more photo and it's gonna be a close up photo HAHAHA

not really that close-up! HAHAHA..

 I promise to myself to buy a Chanel bag for myself even just one in my entire existence, I know it's so freaking expensive but I know it's the kind of bag that gonna stays forever. Spot the Chanel brand guys :) 

Before I love photography I was obsessed with fashion and how it evolves from time to time, mixing up jewelries and facing the mirror asking do I look good? but then I have to minimize my shopping spree because photography is an expensive hobby and I still have a lot of accesories and lenses to buy and the list goes on for my love for photography though it makes me sad sometimes to sacrifice my fashion craves but whenever I captured a photo worth a smile on someone else's face all my sadness is gone.

One block for PRADA!! Ahaaaa....

When you're in Macau don't leave the place without trying their egg tarts! 

McDonald's store opens 24 hours so you don't have to worry if you're hungry, Try their Big and Tasty Burger I love them nom nom

TRAVEL MORE

KNOW OTHER CULTURE

CAPTURE ALL THE MOMENTS

THEY WILL BE MEMORIES

and

LOVE LIFE